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Uhg... am I in a process. I have a professor that says that growing and learning should be uncomfortable. That if we are to change, it should be hard. Damn it. She's right.
Everyday I learn about a short coming I have, or a place where I'm not big enough to fill a gap. I envision daily having to inscribe a new tattoo on my arm for me to remember how to be, sort of like how I used to write phone numbers on my hand or home work assignments (no, I was never organized). As of this week alone my arm would say, "Its not all about you...." "shut up..." "listen, just listen"..."breath".. "think critically"... "you are not the answer"... "you don't know it all"
Its terribly uncomfortable, its uncomfortable knowing its not about me, that I don't have the answers, that I can't talk it away, or say the right things. I'm as helpless as I am helpful .
For the first time in my life I feel terribly deficient. As self-proclaimed affirmation junky, I'm seeing that flattery, and good intentions don't cut it anymore. God damn, it hurts to be judged, and to be misunderstood.
 But do I deserve it? Seriously, am I not always right?
I wonder if every one else goes around feel like they have the answer... cause I certainly feeling this way. That my way is the way, and that I.. but of course.. make sense. I would never go as far to say, I am right and you are wrong... however.. I am most definitely right (note the facitiousness in this statement).
Humble pie... yuck.. the expression taste like sawdust in my mouth (and thats not only because it sounds like a terrible backwoodsy expression)...
As much as I have a clear distaste for humble pie, and this discomfort that is the "becoming" process, I love it. I embrace it whole heartedly. Change sucks, having to grow and learn sucks. But I would have it no other way. I am not always right, but please tell me what is. Its not all about me, but please tell me about the people that its about. I looooonnng for refinement, so up hill I will charge! give me my spoon!

"If we see that people, in order to be, are always in the act of becoming, that in the fullness of life we live life with incompletion" -Paulo Freire